Happy 40th Birthday

Happy 40th Birthday SoonBeng!
Thinking of you today :)

In my heart, always,
~michelle~

 “Thank you for coming into my life, thank you for loving me and receiving my love in return.
   Thank you for the memories I will cherish forever."

In my heart, always
~Michelle~

Happy 39th Birthday...

Gone, but not forgotten.

Happy 39th Birthday.

Thinking of you today, and everyday.

In my heart, always,

Michelle

Thinking of you

I received a bouquet of lilies yesterday and a card with the following words....

Reading the card brought tears to my eyes. You too are still missed...

In my heart, always,
~michelle~ ♥




"Thinking of you

I'm sending you
this message
For how else will you know
that I'm thinking of you
If I did not tell you so!

I want you to know
the reason why,
the answer isn't hard.
for you're someone very special
who I hold in high regard...

You are often in my thoughts
and always in my heart!
for there's a bond between us
even when we are apart.

If you should ever need me,
believe me, for its true,
I am only a thought away
and I'm always here for you."

Flowers from Heaven...

7 years on....

"Nothing is ever really lost as long as we remember it." Remembering you today, SoonBeng. In my heart, always ~Michelle~

7 years on....

"Nothing is ever really lost as long as we remember it." Remembering you today, SoonBeng. In my heart, always ~Michelle~

thinking of you

One day...

"Must i go through life with an empty heart how can i face tomorrow now we are apart and i know if you were here i know what you would say pull yourself together dont throw your life away yes it wont be easy but that is the way it has to be enjoy what you have left one day you will be with me." by john f connor

You would have been 38 today

Dearest SoonBeng, Happy birthday my dear SoonBeng. You would have been 38 today but to us, you will always be 32 - the age you were when you left. Still think of you ever so often. Visited you today and sent some stuff your way. Wonder if you got it :-) Till we meet again, In my heart always ~Michelle~

Dreamt of you last night. Felt so real. Still missing you.

Six years today...

"Even now when I have come so far
I wonder where you are
Even now when I come shining through
I swear I think of you."

Six years has gone by. Still think of you and still miss you SoonBeng.

Till we meet again.

In my heart, always
~Michelle~

Thought of you today...

Thinking of you today...

"As long as you hold someone in your heart, you can never lose them."

In my heart, always
~Michelle~

Thinking of you...

"I'm free here to roam
I run and play in the meadows; here in my new home
We play here by the Bridge; from morning to night
there is no rain here; just warm sunlight

I know you all miss me; I miss you all too
but I'll always be with you; whatever you do
Please wipe the tears; from your weeping eyes
by remembering the good times; from days gone by

When you look out; into the dark of night
I'll be that bright star; your guiding light
We'll meet again at the Bridge one day
when we'll walk in the light; together to stay."

In my heart, always
~Michelle~

Happy 37th Birthday

"Those we love don't go away, they walk beside us every day.
Unseen, unheard, but always near; still loved, still missed and still very dear."

Happy 37th Birthday, SoonBeng!

In my heart, always.
~michelle~

Its been five years....

"I thought of you with love today but that is nothing new.
I thought about you yesterday and days before that too.

I think of you in silence I often speak your name
All I have are memories and your picture in a frame.

Your memory is my keepsake with which I'll never part
God has you in His keeping I have you in my heart."

Its been five years since you've been gone.
Still think of you.
Still missing you.

In my heart, always.
~Michelle~

Thinking of you....

Softly, the leaves of memory fall...
Slowly, I'll gather and pick them all...
Cos today, tomorrow and till my last breath...
I'll always cherish knowing someone like you.


In my heart always,
~Michelle~

36 Years old

Brother, u will be turning 36 tomorrow. Dengan sekelip mata, sudah 4 tahun ! Everything seems the same :) . Heather already 6 months old while Zach sudah umur 5 tahun, K1 this year. Recently, Zach Kena H1N1, his fever went up to 39.2. He was on TAMIFLU med immediately. Luckily, his fever subside 48 hours late. what a relief :). As for Heather, we need to quarantin her. For that period, i need to send breastmilk in the morning and afternoon. Tell u something, my heather is beautiful and cute. Is "pearl on my palm". Like her a lot. i post all her photo im my face book... Bro, sampai saat ini , still thinking of you... talk to u again hun. HAPPY BIRTHDAY Bro....

Your Akachi breakfast. lunch mate
Hwee

Four years since you've been gone...

"Your time on earth seemed all too brief
because I wanted you in my life forever.
And although I really miss you,
in my heart I know that you are at peace.
Still, countless times throughout the day
I find myself remembering you.
Although I cannot see or hear you,
I know that you are with me.
I'm thankful for the times we shared
and the priceless memories too;
for those memories are a comfort now when I lovingly -
Remember You."

Its been four years since you've been gone. I still think of you and still miss you.

In my heart, always,
~michelle~

时光飞逝

又是一年，时间一天一天的把日子送走。
不知不觉，已是四年的光景。总以为时间会让你的影像在我的记忆里退色。其实不然，我还是依然的缅怀着你， 惦记着你。 我想 “想要把你忘记真的很难”， 你应该记得这首歌吧！！！ 虽然你已离去多时。但对我而言，那好像是昨日才发生的事 。。。！！！依稀记得，When Zachary is born on 08 Feb 05. Is a chinese new year eve. You are the only one who come and visit us. I will not forget and never forget. I think by now you should know my 2nd child , Heather already arrived at last Nov. She look exactly like Zac :).
Bro !!! Happy New Year , will pay u a visit during Qing Ming ... :)

Happy Birthday!

Happy 35th Birthday!
thinking & remembering you today, my dear.

In my heart always,
michelle

Miss You My Friend- Rindumu

Semalam, saya mengimpi lagi. Di dalam impi saya, Mu sudah meninggal ... Sudah kurang lebih tiga tahun, di dalam hati saya, saya masih merindumu. Selalu, saya berpikir saya bisa lupamu tetapi tidak bisa kerana itu bukan hal yang mudah untuk saya melupakan seorang sahabat saya. Sampai sekarang, imajmu masih mengesan di dalam hatiku. . . saya percaya kita akan bertemu di masa depan. . .Sorry for using bahasa Indonesia , Bengz know my english not very good ... :)

Three years...

Three years have gone by
I still think of you often
Wondering where you are, how you are

I think of our times together
I don’t think I can ever forget
Those memories
will be with me forever; they are mine to keep
Those memories
will always be locked; away in my heart and in my mind

I will always have a memory of you in my heart,
And I will always carry that picture of you in my mind.

Till we meet again….
~michelle~

To those I Love and those who Love me...

Two years without you...

24 Feb 2008 - Second Anniversary

Nearly TWO years

I thought my memory on you had already faded away but that was not the case. On and off , u still appeared in my dreamt. Great that , You did not launched any complaint to me. If u have, please go ahead and complaint. Well , nearly 2 years !!! Still thinking of u deeply. I had tried to forget about U but after few attempts I know I cant. Y? I believed that u are still around me ... I STRONGly believed !!!

Sometimes, I can just stared at our photo for a few ten mins. I just enjoying doing that, really enjoy. I seldom go out for lunch now. Y? The feeling is not there. Again, I tried to go out with tai low and some other colleagues but I can't find the feeling and all the "bird talk" (Gossip) . Already 2 years , I did not have my breakfast in the pantry( we usually had our breakfast there). As for the buying of coffee, Tai low (Vincent) has took over the task. He usually will get me a packet of coffee every morning. The bond between me and tai low go strong and firm everyday.

Sorry for my poor English, all the while u know my english in command is lousy but I am 100% sure u know what am I writing because U know me.

Always on my mind
~Hwee~

I carry your heart

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart) I am never without it (anywhere I go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling) I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true) and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you Here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide) And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart) -Ee Cummings-

Another birthday without you...

My second birthday without you.
Wonder how many more till I see u again.
I miss you more on days like this.
And I remember my last birthday with you
- 2005 in Phuket -
Who would have thought that would be the last birthday we would celebrate together?

I still think of you my dear.
Each and every day.
How to forget someone like you?
Am sure those those hearts you touched would understand and feel the same.

I read a book “We are their Heaven”-
about how our loved ones are still with us even after they are gone.
I believe.
I know you are still here with me.

Received a bouquet of flowers with teddy bears
from your sis and family today
(The teddy bear you gave still sits at the same place you left it.)
It brought a smile to me, I was so touched.
It was as if they were sent by you.
Thank you Siok Hua, Soon Lee and Aunty.
Thank you….

In my heart, always,
~michelle~

33 today...

Happy Birthday, my soonbeng!

Missing you...

Lorry Driver Fined Over Death

"A lorry driver who caused the death of a motorcyclist through his negligence was fined $6,000 and banned from driving for five years yesterday.

Lau Chee Keong, 41, was also fined another $500 for causing hurt to his front seat passenger, Mr Tan Chin Khoon, 39, on Feb 24 last year. He was making a right turn into Teletech Park from Science Park Road when he failed to stop and give way to Mr Lim Soon Beng, 31."

- Straits Times, 24 Mar 2007

One year without you...

One year has gone by.
Life goes on.
But it will never be the same again.
There is an empty space where he is supposed to be.

I think of him every day and still ask
Why did he have to go?
Why did God give him to me and then take him away?
These are the many questions that have no answers.

Everything reminds me of him. Everything.
His family, his friends and
even those he was not so fond of.
At work, at home,
the places we used to go to, the walks we used to take.
Everything reminds me of him.

I tell myself at least I had a few good years with him.
But even that is no consolation.

Does the pain go away
No.
It becomes part of you.
And life goes on.
But it will never be the same again without him.

~In my heart always~

24 Feb 2007 - First Anniversary

Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day, my dear!

Thinking of you and missing you.....

~Love Never Dies~

2007

Time passes by so quicky.
A new year starts without you :-(
Soon, it will be a year since you left.
But in my heart you will always be.
Your love, your voice, your smile
Are imprinted in my heart.

I think of you everyday and miss you so much.

You left nine months ago...

It's been nine months or 282 days since you left.

You're in my thoughts every single day.

Would give anything to see you again...

Missing you
~michelle~

To Where You Are...

Who can say for certain
Maybe you’re still here
I feel you all around me
Your memories so clear

Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You’re still an inspiration
Can it be
That you are mine
Forever love
And you are watching over me from up above

Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you’re there
A breath away’s not far
To where you are

Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn’t faith believing
All power can’t be seen

As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
cause you are mine
Forever love
Watching me from up above

And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave

Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you’re there
A breath away’s not far
To where you are

To Where You Are - Josh Groban

Five months...

You left five months ago, Not a day goes by when I don't think of you, my dear. Miss you. Time does not heal, It only numbs the pain. "In my heart There will always be a place for you for all my life. I'll keep a part of you with me And everywhere I am, there you'll be." In my heart, always, ~michelle~

To those of us who are left behind

To those of us who are left behind...

We can shed tears that he has gone; or
We can smile because he has lived.

We can close our eyes and pray that he'll come back; or
We can open our eyes and see all he has done.

Our heart can be empty because we can't see him; or
We can be full of the love we shared.

We can turn our back on tommorrow and live for yesterday; or
We can be happy for tommorrow because of yesterday.

We can remember him and think only that he has gone; or
We can cherish his memory and let it live on.

We can cry and close our mind, be empty and turn our back; or
We can do what he'd want us to do, open our eyes, love, and go on.

100 days

Happy Birthday, SoonBeng!
Its been 100 days since you left;
Rest in peace, my dear.
We will meet again, one day.


"He was my North, my South, my East and West;
My working week and my Sunday rest;
My noon, my midnight, my talk and my song."


Always in my heart,
~your michelle~

Please understand...

Please understand

Please dont tell me u know how i feel
Because No one will ever know how i feel.

Don't tell me time will heal my broken heart,
Because my heart is broken, it will never heal.

Don't tell me Soon Beng has gone to a better place,
Because I know he has.
But i want him here with me,
I want to see his face,
I want to hear his voice,
I want to hold him.

Don't tell me it's time to move on,
Because I cannot, not yet...

Don't tell me to think of the good times we shared,
Because, for now, it only reminds me
that there will be no more such good times.

Don't tell me you want to see the old michelle again,
Because she went with Soon Beng 62 days ago,
I will never be the same again.

And please,
Don't tell me Soon Beng will not want to see me like this,
Because I KNOW,of all people, i KNOW
he won't want to see me like this.
But I also know, he will understand.

So, please, just please understand,
I miss Soonbeng and it HURTS.
I want him back,
I want to be with him,
I miss him.

Yes, its been two months already,
But I am hurting, still.
Please understand.

Soon Beng in Bali....

Pics of Soon Beng in Bali from 30 Jan - 5 Feb 2005.

Hope...

Hope - Sometimes its all we have left.

The only thing that gives me hope now
Is I know, I’ll see you again some day
And I know you will be
the first one I meet
when my journey here ends….

Forever in my heart till we meet again,
~michelle~

49 days...

A part of me went with you 49 days ago;
I don’t know if I will ever be the same again.
My heart still aches,
Its so painful and it hurts.
Why did you have to go SoonBeng?
Why?
We were not even halfway through our journey together!
We still had so many things to do together.

The past few years were happiest times of my life
Because you were there to share my life with me.
I will never forget how good it was
To share a part of my life with you.
You occupied a very Big place in my heart and in my life,
That's why I feel so Empty and Lost now.
I miss you so much.

You had a part of me that I don’t think anyone else can ever have.


Till we meet again, my dear
~michelle~

“The pain of grief is the price we pay

for love.”

Thinking of you...

"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal;
Love leaves a memory no one can steal."

Thinking of you today and everyday,
~michelle~

等待。。。。。

失去你，我人生的拼图彷佛缺少了一块。
永远无法拼成一幅完整的图画。
认识你，丰富了我整个人生的点点滴滴。
感谢老天赐于我俩的这个福分。
短暂的离别是上天对我们的考验。
我坚信你我的情谊将会延续下去。
生生不息，永不言断。
老友，我们惟有等待这一刻。
再续前缘。。。。。

-振珲

我心深处

泪已干，我开始感到无助和彷徨。 没有你的日子，让我感到有点儿不习惯。 总以为时间会是最好的良药， 原来那只是骗人的桥段。 我真的真的很希望对你不再有任何的联想。 但，我知道这只是逃避的一种管道。 空间把你我给划分得清清楚楚， 让你我选择各自要走的路。 虽然彼此已不在同样的空间， 但，我深信你还活在我心深处的那一端。 - Skives Soh

Missing you still...

If I could talk to you now, I would ask "Are you ok, my dear?", "Do you miss me as much as I miss you?" "Do you know how much I love you?" "For it was not into my ears you whisphered, but into my heart; It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul." Love you, with my heart and soul ~michelle~

To hold your hand again...

I would do anything to hold you hand again.

I just can't let you go yet.

Miss you so much.

Touched My heart

I close myself in the room, feeling depressed with a broken heart, when you came over with your favourite mass-tin mug ( the one that nobody dares to touch ) filled with voka ribena, you told me to cry out and I will feel better if I cry out Loud.
You left me with the drink in the room alone....told me to finish up the drink and sleep.
You read me well........

I have never told you I was so surprise, I did what you have said though never finish the drink but I woke up the next day knowing that there is always a man that cares for me. - That's You Bro!

I will miss those days when you "stand in" and go movies with me.
( Never had enough ...)

We had missed lots of good food without you. A bar of chocolate will be kept in the fridge for long without you and it never taste the same ever again.
( Food always taste better when we fight over it - Soon Beng)

Remembering you........

When we hear the sneezing sound from your room to the toilet - we know you are awake.

When I heard the knocking sound of your tooth brush on the basin to dry it, I know you are done & ready.

When you came home without a word - we knew you are not in the mood to joke.

When you stare at something - we knew we better clear it away or trouble is on our way!
I will remember the time when I did not throw away the rubbish, chatting on the phone for hrs Ended with rubbish on my bed! This is the way we learn and we really learned through your tough training.
SL is back with leaving his used toothpick behind again! Can you use some migical power to put on his bed like you used to do? I think he will freak out!

I will always remember those time we share a bottle of wine, dipping the crackers into salsa...oh and your pattern - eat your favourite fish ball crackers with chopsticks! I can't stand that!

Mum still cook your favourite food - guess we will soon take over your size! ( mum main focus i guess is to grow us like you! )

Guess what? You are still in us ....in our heart. Every little things & time we shared remains...

We miss your joke, your laughter ( Loud laughter that can be heard at storey 6 while you play tennis at the void deck ) ...................WE MISS YOU!

Missing you...

You were a part of my life in so many ways.
Time can't change the way i feel,
I Love you now and
I Always will.

Miss you so much....

~ Forever in my heart ~

Strength and courage

"Being loved deeply by someone gives you strength;
loving someone deeply gives you courage."
- Lao Tzu

SoonBeng, being loved by you & loving you
gave me strengh and courage.
Where do i get my strength and courage now?

The pain just wont go away.
How do I go on?

A Lifetime Shared

Came across this song. The words say what i feel...

A Lifetime Shared - by Middle Spunk Creek Boys

It wasn't supposed to end this way
He was always the strong one.
She never wanted to carry on,
or live out life without him.
He never got to say goodbye,
Though he could feel her tears.
His hand wouldn't move to touch her cheek
and he couldn't calm her fears.

We won't be parted very long,
You'll keep me in your heart.
And I'll be the first one waiting there,
To take you in my arms
And I'll leave you never more.

She knew that the end was drawing near,
It was only a matter of time.
A lifetime shared slowly slipped apart as he left her here behind.
At night she can feel him lying there,
He seems to call her name,
And each new dawn brings a lonely day,
and it's hard to stop the pain.

We won't be parted very long,
I'll keep you in my heart,
And you'll be the first one waiting there,
And you'll take me in your arms,
And I'll leave you never more.

It wasn't supposed to end this way,
Why couldn't she have gone too?
Who would be there now to touch her face,
or to whisper, "I love you?"
She's finally stopped listening for the door,
She sets the table for one,
And prays each night as she goes to bed she won't see the morning sun.

We won't be parted very long,
You'll keep me in your heart.
And I'll be the first one waiting there,
To take you in my arms
And I'll leave you never more.

Life is like a Book

Life is like a book, we are walking through the pages. - Soon Beng

And I asked you at the hospital and at your wake, why did yours end at Pg 32?

Whenever I was lost, stressed, heartbroken or upset, you told me it's all pre-planned. Life is like a book, destiny, fate and do we have a choice in life?

I am going through your pages now... keeping records of all 32 pages from whatever I remember and through people that you have touched and hoping to keep it alive again!

I opened my eyes with fear day after you left! I realised and understand the weight on your shoulders all these years! It's never been easy to be our Brother, our FATHER and a SON to our mother. You have done your part and you did it well. It's time for you to take a break and rest in peace.

I will pen down every word you've said and those I've learned.
(With your selective listening, what can you learn? - Soon Beng)
At least I remember this for life!
(If you ever smoke, make sure you don't come home or I will break your legs! - Soon Beng)

It Hurts...

"It is meant to hurt.
What don't hurt is not worth remembering.
What's meant to be remembered, Hurts." - Soon Beng

Its HURTS, my dear...

The After Loss Credo

I need to talk about my loss.
I may often need to tell you what happened-
or to ask you WHY it happened.
Each time I discuss my loss,
I am helpingmyself face the reality
of the death of my loved one.

I need to know that you care about me.
I need to feel your touch, your hugs.
I need you just to be WITH me.
(And I need to be with you.)
I need to know you believe in me and
in myability to get through my grief in my own way.
(And in my own time.)

Please don't judge me now-
or think that I'm behaving strangely.
Remember I'm grieving.
I may even be in shock.
I may feel afraid.
I may feel deep rage.
I may even feel guilty.
But above all, I hurt.
I'm experiencing a pain unlike any I've ever felt before.

Don't worry if you think I'm getting better
and then suddenly I seem to slip backward.
Grief makes me behave this way at times.
And please don't tell me you 'know how I feel',
or that it's 'time for me to get on with my life'.
(I am probably already saying this to myself.)
What I need now is time to grieve and to recover.

Most of all, thank you for being my friend.
Thank you for your patience.
Thank you for caring.
Thank you for helping, for understanding.
Thank you for praying for me.

And remember, in the days or years ahead,
after your loss - when you need me as I have needed you-
I will understand.
And then I will come and be with you.

- By Barbara Hills LesStrang

A part of me...

A part of me
will ALWAYS be with you; and
a part of you
will ALWAYS be with me.

Till we meet again, my dear...

You And I

This is the one and only song which SoonBeng sang to me.

Not a day goes by when i don't think of you, my dear...
~michelle~

You And I - Scorpions

I lose control because of you babe
I lose control when you look at me like this
There's something in your eyes that is saying tonight
I'm not a child anymore, life has opened the door
To a new exciting life

It's all written down in your lifelines
It's written down inside your heart

You and I just have a dream
To find our love a place, where we can hide away
You and I were just made
To love each other now, forever and a day

I lose control because of you babe
I lose control don't look at me like this
There's something in your eyes that is saying tonight
I'm so curious for more just like never before
In my innocent life

It's all written down in your lifelines
It's written down inside your heart

You and I just have a dream
To find our love a place, where we can hide away
You and I were just made
To love each other now, forever and a day

Time stands still when the days of innocence
Are falling for the night
I love you girl I always will
I swear I'm there for you
Till the day I die

You and I just have a dream
To find our love a place, where we can hide away
You and I were just made
To love each other now, forever and a day…

Eulogy for Soon Beng

To my dear friend Soon Beng,

These are some heart felt words that everyone present today would agree with me.

Throughout the years I’ve known him, he has always been my mentor, my advisor, a brother, a listening ear and someone close to all our hearts, just like the rojak he likes to eat.

I’m sure he would not approve of this little speech I’m giving as it might be too long-winded for his liking, but I must do this great and upright man justice and solaces, so I’ll go on.

He is a man with very strong principles, full of integrity. I still remember one incident where the two of us were suppose to meet for tea and I was late. He went home and avoided me for three weeks, after which he finally decided to lecture this young man, on punctuality and its importance. It wasn’t so much of wanting to be on time in the future, it was rather the friendship between us that I treasured so much that led me to change, and if not for him, I wouldn’t be who I am today.

Cleanliness and hygiene was also on top of his list and he used to have this little quote, “My bike is like my underwear, and I like my underwear clean!” Such are the jokes and times we shared with everyone at the coffee shop we affectionally named café ‘851’.

He was also someone who never compromises his friend’s happiness; always striving for a win-win result in all kinds of situation, whether it was his own or his friend's.

One could easily say he has his flaws, but he was a unique individual who is aware of it, neither shying from the fact and always seeking ways to improve himself and people around him, to us near to perfection as humanly possible.

This speech wouldn’t be very complete without the praise of his safety and skill in taming anything on two wheels. Not only was he adept in imitating moves we watch in motorbike video tapes, he was always willing to guide greenhorns like me, in motor biking at the time I knew him and prove to everyone what he says could be done.

No doubt all of us are saddened by the loss of this special person called Lim Soon Beng or otherwise known as Pui Boy to his “team-mates” at ‘851’, we should be glad we managed to cross paths with him and he would forever remain in our hearts, lighting up our mood whenever we’re down. That would have been the way he wanted it to be.

May riding gods be with you Beng.

~ Friend Eric ~

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me...

When tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
all filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn't cry
The way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
and each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.

But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind
All those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye
For all my life, I'd always thought,
I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible,
That I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
and all the fun we had.

If I could re-live yesterday
Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you
And maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories,
would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
My heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.

When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne.
He said, "This is eternity,
And all I've promised you.

"Today your life on earth is past,
But here life starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
And since each day's the same way
There's no longing for the past.

You have been so faithful,
So trusting and so true.
Though there were times
You did some things
You knew you shouldn't do.

But you have been forgiven
And now at last you're free.
So won't you come and take my hand
And share my life with me?"

So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart.

- By David Romano

Forever in my heart....
~michelle~

Death is not a parting.....

"Death is not a parting,
It is just saying goodbye for awhile."

Till we meet again...

Does time really heal?

Will time really heal the pain?

Its been FOURTEEN days since my dearest soonbeng was suddenly taken away from all of us...

At Soonbeng’s funeral, I shared with all those present the last sentence of the note that Soonbeng left for me. He said,

“a page in your life juz closed, but a new chapter has begun…tOmm when U wake up, do not mourn for me, smile for me ya’…U know that’s what I want to see…a smiling Michelle…”

I can’t smile for u yet, Soonbeng. But, I will try...

Forever in my heart,

~michelle~

Eulogy for Soon Beng

I want to extend my condolences to Soon Beng's family...

As you all know, Soon Beng has 2 main groups of friends, his former schoolmates and the coffeshop buddies (also his motor cycle buddies). I amone of his motor cycle friends and have known Soon Beng for over 10 years.

Soon Beng enjoyed riding motor cycles and it is our love for motor cycles that enabled us to be good friends. Soon Beng was a very friendly personand he always took the initiative to make new friends, to say the first"Hi". Over the years we have become good friends and see each other almosteveryday, since we often start our motorbikes together.

We have gone for many motor cycling trips and had a lot of fun and memories. Soon Beng was in the process of organising another trip to Cameron Highlands and Port Dickson this coming April. We have decided that the trip shall still proceed and know that he will be with us in spirit.

Soon Beng valued his friends very much and he would be very glad that all of you turned up to pay your respects. All his friends and colleagues, SoonBeng must have made a lasting impression for you all to be here today. Letsus all not forget the bubbling, friendly and witty character that he is.

Lastly, it is unfortunate that Soon Beng Did not do better in his lovelife. Maybe its because he spends to much time with us. We used to encourage him to go find a girlfriend. Michelle, I think you meant a lot to him and we knew that he was happy.May Soon Beng occupy a special place in all our hearts.

~friend marcel~

Till we meet again....

"It is better to have loved and lost,
then not to have loved at all."

I loved and was loved.

Till we meet again, my dearest

~michelle~

Eulogy for Soon Beng

Soon Beng as we all know was someone we'll treasure for a long long time. He is someone anyone would call a friend - this is very apparent by the number of people who were at the hospital when he met with the accident on Friday and who have come to pay their respects till today. I am very very sure that he will be smiling down at us now and very happy to know that what he did in his lifetime was all not in vain. He touched many of us here in one way or the other. His big heart, gentle ways and simplicity in life are typical of Soon Beng. Anyone who knew him well can attest to all these. Even in death, he did not want anything grand and pompous but just a simple funeral with friends around; guess he did not know that even with this "simplicity", the turnout is even grander than he would have dreamed of.

Soon Beng will be remembered for someone who loves to eat, will go out of his way to help anyone he meets, has respect for his elders and is someone whose company anyone will enjoy at all times. The comical side of him were seen in his funny antics - the funny faces he made, the witty replies he gave and the many other things he did.

I'm sure that he will not enjoy seeing us here being sad but instead would like us to think of him enjoying himself up there, being free and easy. It's hard not to be sad at this time, knowing that it's going to be a long time till we meet again .......... it's only human to cry but Soon Beng would advise us to let it all out and then move on and enjoy life like he did. He was not someone who lived in the past but lived for the future and enjoyed every living moment. So i guess, we should all try and follow suit.

The following poem would best describe Soon Beng's short, sharp and straight to the point speech to us today:
Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awake in the morning hush,
I am the swift upflinging rush Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die.

Soon Beng is now not lying still doing nothing; his presence is all around us,
in everything that moves and in everything wonderful,
we should therefore be aware that though he is physically gone from us, his presence is still very much alive in many aspects and moments of our lives.
So, Soon Beng, thanks for all you've given us and the time you invested in us - we will not forget. So my friend, till we meet again, know that we love you .............. take care and enjoy, not goodbye but see u ..........


the above eulogy was written by Alison and delivered by Michael

In Memory of My bro Soon Beng

Created this blog for my late brother Soon Beng

What exactly happened?I do not know the exact details of the accident as it is still pending investigation by the traffic police. I do not wish for this blog or any other forms of non-factual circulation to affect or delay the traffic police investigation. I would just like to keep our relatives, brother's friends, colleagues and those who care about what happen in the loop. Most importantly, we hope for more witnesses to step out and provide information to the traffic police.

Those who are close to my brother may want to send me a mail or anything which they want to say to my or about brother and post on this blog.

On 24th February 2006, a Friday afternoon around 1630hours, my bro just finished his work at CSIT (Center For Strategic Infocomm Technologies) at Science Park 2 and was traveling on his bike on Science Park Road towards Pasir Panjang Road. As he was approaching the uncontrolled cross junction in front of Teletech Park, a lorry traveling at the opposite direction made a right turn and my brother’s bike collided into the front passenger side of the lorry.

He sustained multiple injuries, and was gasping for breath while waiting for the ambulance to arrive. He stopped breathing in the ambulance, and was pronounced dead in the hospital at 1800 hours. The passenger in the lorry also sustained injuries but I do not know the details. The lorry driver escaped unhurt.

I am appealing for more witnesses of the accident and pray more people will come out to tell what they say… it doesn’t matter who is rite or who is wrong, most important is what actually happened! From what I know and believe, with my brother’s riding skills of more than 10yrs, he is a very safe rider and would not endanger the life of others or his own life!

This is what he use to say to me: “I’ll rather wear my riding gear, jackets, boots, helmets, etc… and go for it on the race track at least I know it’s safer to fall there, because there isn’t any kurb or trees on the race track. To do something foolish on the road not only have a higher risk of injury but also risk OTHER ROAD USERS ”.

With all that said and done, I’ll like to just appeal for more witnesses and hope everyone who reads this will pass the blog or message around to whoever might be working around Science Park 2 who may have seen what happened.“Appealing for more Witness for accident at Science Park Road at the entrance to unit 20 on 24/02/06 Friday 1642hour contact traffic police”

I like to take this oppotunity to thank everyone who turn up for my brother’s wake and funeral and for their help and assistance.