Please understand...

Please understand

Please dont tell me u know how i feel
Because No one will ever know how i feel.

Don't tell me time will heal my broken heart,
Because my heart is broken, it will never heal.

Don't tell me Soon Beng has gone to a better place,
Because I know he has.
But i want him here with me,
I want to see his face,
I want to hear his voice,
I want to hold him.

Don't tell me it's time to move on,
Because I cannot, not yet...

Don't tell me to think of the good times we shared,
Because, for now, it only reminds me
that there will be no more such good times.

Don't tell me you want to see the old michelle again,
Because she went with Soon Beng 62 days ago,
I will never be the same again.

And please,
Don't tell me Soon Beng will not want to see me like this,
Because I KNOW,of all people, i KNOW
he won't want to see me like this.
But I also know, he will understand.

So, please, just please understand,
I miss Soonbeng and it HURTS.
I want him back,
I want to be with him,
I miss him.

Yes, its been two months already,
But I am hurting, still.
Please understand.

Soon Beng in Bali....

Pics of Soon Beng in Bali from 30 Jan - 5 Feb 2005.

Hope...

Hope - Sometimes its all we have left.

The only thing that gives me hope now
Is I know, I’ll see you again some day
And I know you will be
the first one I meet
when my journey here ends….

Forever in my heart till we meet again,
~michelle~

49 days...

A part of me went with you 49 days ago;
I don’t know if I will ever be the same again.
My heart still aches,
Its so painful and it hurts.
Why did you have to go SoonBeng?
Why?
We were not even halfway through our journey together!
We still had so many things to do together.

The past few years were happiest times of my life
Because you were there to share my life with me.
I will never forget how good it was
To share a part of my life with you.
You occupied a very Big place in my heart and in my life,
That's why I feel so Empty and Lost now.
I miss you so much.

You had a part of me that I don’t think anyone else can ever have.


Till we meet again, my dear
~michelle~

“The pain of grief is the price we pay

for love.”

Thinking of you...

"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal;
Love leaves a memory no one can steal."

Thinking of you today and everyday,
~michelle~

等待。。。。。

失去你，我人生的拼图彷佛缺少了一块。
永远无法拼成一幅完整的图画。
认识你，丰富了我整个人生的点点滴滴。
感谢老天赐于我俩的这个福分。
短暂的离别是上天对我们的考验。
我坚信你我的情谊将会延续下去。
生生不息，永不言断。
老友，我们惟有等待这一刻。
再续前缘。。。。。

-振珲

我心深处

泪已干，我开始感到无助和彷徨。 没有你的日子，让我感到有点儿不习惯。 总以为时间会是最好的良药， 原来那只是骗人的桥段。 我真的真的很希望对你不再有任何的联想。 但，我知道这只是逃避的一种管道。 空间把你我给划分得清清楚楚， 让你我选择各自要走的路。 虽然彼此已不在同样的空间， 但，我深信你还活在我心深处的那一端。 - Skives Soh

Missing you still...

If I could talk to you now, I would ask "Are you ok, my dear?", "Do you miss me as much as I miss you?" "Do you know how much I love you?" "For it was not into my ears you whisphered, but into my heart; It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul." Love you, with my heart and soul ~michelle~

To hold your hand again...

I would do anything to hold you hand again.

I just can't let you go yet.

Miss you so much.

Touched My heart

I close myself in the room, feeling depressed with a broken heart, when you came over with your favourite mass-tin mug ( the one that nobody dares to touch ) filled with voka ribena, you told me to cry out and I will feel better if I cry out Loud.
You left me with the drink in the room alone....told me to finish up the drink and sleep.
You read me well........

I have never told you I was so surprise, I did what you have said though never finish the drink but I woke up the next day knowing that there is always a man that cares for me. - That's You Bro!

I will miss those days when you "stand in" and go movies with me.
( Never had enough ...)

We had missed lots of good food without you. A bar of chocolate will be kept in the fridge for long without you and it never taste the same ever again.
( Food always taste better when we fight over it - Soon Beng)

Remembering you........

When we hear the sneezing sound from your room to the toilet - we know you are awake.

When I heard the knocking sound of your tooth brush on the basin to dry it, I know you are done & ready.

When you came home without a word - we knew you are not in the mood to joke.

When you stare at something - we knew we better clear it away or trouble is on our way!
I will remember the time when I did not throw away the rubbish, chatting on the phone for hrs Ended with rubbish on my bed! This is the way we learn and we really learned through your tough training.
SL is back with leaving his used toothpick behind again! Can you use some migical power to put on his bed like you used to do? I think he will freak out!

I will always remember those time we share a bottle of wine, dipping the crackers into salsa...oh and your pattern - eat your favourite fish ball crackers with chopsticks! I can't stand that!

Mum still cook your favourite food - guess we will soon take over your size! ( mum main focus i guess is to grow us like you! )

Guess what? You are still in us ....in our heart. Every little things & time we shared remains...

We miss your joke, your laughter ( Loud laughter that can be heard at storey 6 while you play tennis at the void deck ) ...................WE MISS YOU!

Missing you...

You were a part of my life in so many ways.
Time can't change the way i feel,
I Love you now and
I Always will.

Miss you so much....

~ Forever in my heart ~